Tag: womens fiction

It’s Not All Puppies and Rainbows

When Life Doesn’t Go As Planned

So, there I was; plugging along like a kid on a glorious Saturday afternoon, making their way through the neighborhood to hook up with friends. Confident, unbothered, happy. That’s how it feels just before life starts to throw shit your way. Then, it feels more like you’re dodging line-drives from the pitchers mound, and you start talking to yourself.

“I didn’t sign up for this shit!”

If you read my previous post, the holidays were good and I was quite optimistic about life in general. I’m still a very optimistic person, regardless of the bizarre circumstances I find myself in these days. But sometimes, you just gotta sit back and scratch your head in wonderous confusion, on how the tables can turn so quickly. How one minute you feel like you’ve got the world on a string, then the next you are holding onto a tiger’s tail, praying the bumpy ride will be over quickly.

The new year of 2026 started out fairly well. The Mister and I had a lovely two week trip making the rounds to see a multitude of family and friends, sight seeing along the way. It was great! Spending quality time with my hubby, laughing, joking and toasting each evening with cocktails, often gazing at painted skys of sherbet. Just living our best life!

But the Universe sometimes presents challenges that we aren’t expecting, and it’s in the way we respond to these challenges that shows just how far we’ve come on this evolutionary plane. Sometimes, we respond with grace. Sometimes we say the fuck word…a lot!

A few things have thrown a cog in the works of my nicely greased machine I call, My Life. Now, as I just said, I can usually respond to unpleasant situations these days, (oh, say the past six years), with a resonable demeanor and focused goal on what to do next. But sometimes things build up, and then all bets are off. Yeah…I can lose my shit.

When we returned from our fun trip out of state, I was in a car accident that left me with injuries I’m still healing from, and it flat out sucks. No other way to say it. I won’t go into any detail about the situation, for one, it won’t do any good, and for two, I’m trying to move forward and not rehash things. Still, it was a sucker punch thing to happen in my life, and I feel sort of ambushed.

You cannot prepare yourself really, to have shit go sideways. I mean, we do our best, each day to be mindful. To live with intention and kindness. We work hard, strive to do the right things, and still, sometimes you get to eat a shit sandwich. Fair? Nope. But that’s reality. And here I am, asking myself if I’ve done enough work on my spiritual-self to move to the other side with dignity and grace.

Like, when I’ve been working diligently with both Amazon and Ingram Spark, for months on end to get it together and, won’t somebody please tell me why these guys can’t get along? I own my ISBN numbers (which is the International Standard Book Number), for both my books, (After the Fire, and Wildflower), and still, they each think the other owns it. So, they aren’t letting me publish on both platforms. Nothing I do has helped. I know it sounds confusing if you aren’t in publishing, but trust me, it’s an independent author’s nightmare.

It pisses me off.

But still, each morning I wake up since the accident, I tell myself how blessed I am to be here, and how grateful I am for this life. I try to be hopeful each day, and spend time reminding myself of my great fortune, by listening to things like, Tuesdays with Morrie, on audiobook, or reading inspirational stuff like, The Happiness Project, for the hundredth time. But as my dear friend told me on the phone when I was promising that everything is gonna work out, she said, “Yeah, but Patti, it still fucking sucks.”

IT DOES!

Getting your bearings when you feel you’ve been thrown off course, can take time and patience. I’m learning all about patience, and what I’ve discovered is…I’m not all that patient. Ha!

Recently I read a substack post by author Annabel Monaghan entitled, “Don’t Tell Me to Relax.” It was interesting to me as well as funny, because I was like, yeah! Don’t tell us to relax when things aren’t going our way, dammit! And while she was stuck in this AirBNB, instead of her new place she was waiting for months to move into, the decor of this rental was mocking her with over-the-top vacation vibes. Too much sealife ornamentation, happy signage, and aggressive decorating to the point that even the back of the toilet had an enormous seahorse sculpture sitting on it. Offensive and ridiculous if you are not really on vacation, but in limbo waiting out escrow.

I tell you that only because, toxic positivity can come from most anywhere. Especially if we are feeling shitty. And it is OK, to be both an optimistic person, and still admit to feeling like you’ve been served piss in your champagne flute. You don’t get demerits for speaking your truth. Still, I don’t want to wrap myself up with a pity party and live there. But once in a while, I let myself cry for about 10 minutes before moving on.

When you are landblasted with an unexpected situation, allow yourself time to digest it. To sit with it, and wait for all the pieces to fall before you expect yourself to reassemble. These things take time, and you deserve the grace, love, and understanding to process it all before moving forward again. These are the things I’m telling myself every single day. The more I say it, the more I believe it. It’s true for me, and it’ll be true for you too.

And before ya know it, life takes on a beautiful glow again. It might look different, or it could point you into a different trajectory, but it’s in the nano-moments and glimpses of light that filter through the cracks that brings us the tread we so desperately need…and that is hope.

With love, Patti

* Pictures of me and Marina del Rey, are mine. Feature post courtesy of pexels.com and cartoon is Bitmoji.

Bookshops, Band Gigs, and Bone Density Tests

Things keeping me busier than a bartender on payday!

Much has happened in my world since I last posted here. Mostly good things, but I have to say, that sometimes I feel like I’m on a high speed rail. It’s like the old song, “Hot Rod Lincoln,” says, “My speedometer has hit top end, my foot glued to the floor, that’s all there is, and their ain’t no more!”

Not that I’m complaining though. I love what I’ve put on my plate, and the people I get to interact with make me smile just thinking about them. And there have been quite a lot of folks I’ve seen since August, when I last posted. Lots of events and activities that have filled up, seemingly, every square space on my calendar. When I bring up my phone’s calendar lately, it looks like I’m about to achieve blackout in Bingo!

The biggest event was our daughter Emma’s wedding. She was married on September 20th, and the lead up to it, and the weekend itself, were as most big weddings are; full of chaos, rushing, and lots of laughter with friends and family. The photographer is still working on some of the edits, but I’ll share a pic of our original four. Charlie, Emma, me, and our oldest, Fallon.

I’ve had several book tour dates as well. All of my events have been in Northern California thus far. I did have to cancel my SoCal date for Culver City, because there was just far too much going on. However, I may revisit that idea of going south again this spring. But the most interesting place where I had the most sales so far, was at a local winery. Fults Family Vineyards has a monthly event called Thirsty Thursday, that goes all summer and into fall. Because the band I’m in was the evening’s entertainment, I had double duty, of singing and during our set breaks, I signed copies of my books. My face hurt from smiling and laughing, it was so much fun.

Speaking of the band…we played an epic evening recently that was a 1970s costume party / fundraiser. We were all decked out in 70s garb, complete with platform shoes, wigs, and bell-bottoms. I had so many sequins that if I’d been lost, you could have just followed the trail of tiny, sparkling discs left in my wake to find me. Yes, I chose the disco era.

From left to right that is Dan Janakes, Mike Harris, myself, Dave Evans, Bill Diener, and Tim Gill. We are The Classic Set, and man, do we have fun! Of course, this isn’t our normal attire…well mostly not. Wink-wink.

So of course I’ve had many book events at bookstores. Some readings, some meet and greets, and one author panel. At each place, I’ve been welcomed and supported so well, that I have to say that the independent bookstores are the best!

Basically, I have had nothing but encouraging and loving support from both the writing community, as well as the independent bookstores across the board. My experience as an indie author has been nothing short of amazing. And a dream opportunity has been offered to me as well. Author Brenda Novak, who has more than eighty books in print, has offered to have me on her Facebook group live this coming Thursday, October 30th. She hosts a monthly book group online and I am simply over the moon excited about it. Join her group to watch.

Now, I know you must be wondering what I was talking about in the title of this post when I said, bone density test. Well, I am fifty-seven years old, I’ve only broken a few small bones in my entire life, but this year, my doctor said that since I’m getting “older,” I should consider getting one. The reason being is that in February of this year, I broke a toe. Yep, that’s it. But I also know that I am a klutz, and basically hurt myself because of the velocity of which I go-go-go! I believe anyone who runs around like a chicken with it’s head cut off like I do, is bound to have a little mishap now and again, (let’s not talk about the time I knocked myself out on a fence trying to duck under it while walking too fast with a ball cap on). So next week, I’ll get a bone density test done, like a good aging girl should.

Other than that, I’m planning to take some much needed down time with my hubby the first part of November, but after that, who knows? I am planning a trip over to the Sacramento area to put some of my books on consignment in another indie bookshop, (more on that to come). Other than that, I think the majority of my book marketing for Wildflower, and book talks will be online or on podcasts. I promise to keep you apprised.

Lastly, in case you didn’t know this, Wildflower is available on audiobook too! You can listen wherever you get your audiobooks. Some examples are Spotify, Libro.fm, Audiobooks.com, Audible, and so many more platforms.

Thank you for your support. If you have read either of my books, After the Fire, or Wildflower, I’d like to ask a favor. Please consider leaving a rating, a review, or post about it online. Letting others know about my books, from someone that isn’t me, is extremely helpful. I appreciate it more than you know.

Happy reading friends. Xoxo ~ Patti

Spreading the Joy

Bookstores, Podcasts, and Wineries too!

Lucky for me, I’m not a shy person. I love talking with folks, learning about them and having deep conversations. Because I am good at this you’d think that marketing a book and doing all the PR that is involved would come easy to me, right?

WRONG!

I have a helluva time knowing what to say about my work. I’m great at promoting other people’s work. But for some reason, when I’m asked about my latest release, I find it hard to wrap it up succinctly. It is always the toughest job for me, writing the summary. Making the pitch. But I’m getting better.

As a little girl, I dreamed of writing books for a living. As an adult, I found it hard to etch out time to get any writing done. I dove into adulthood as the responsible person I always was. I had the job, and soon after the husband, and the kids. I then took to marriage and parenting in the same manner. Everything else was first, and my writing was a “pipe-dream.” I would get to it one day.

Then I finally wrote my first book, After the Fire. It was a well received first novel, and I am still very proud of it, mostly because it was honoring my community after the devastating Valley Fire of 2015. But years later, and with many writing classes and workshops under my belt, I’ve found I’ve grown and improved my writing chops. It was high time I wrote something new.

Since my new book’s release this past July, Wildflower, has done really well. I’ve had, and continue to get, many opportunities to promote the book. Many bookstores have been very welcoming in putting my book on hand, and I’ve been invited to speak on both podcasts as well as Instagram, and Facebook live events. These are huge promoting opportunities. I’m very grateful.

The thing that continues to excite me is the upcoming events. I’m fortunate in that I’ve been welcomed to do book signings at store tables, and do readings at some stores as well. I’ve been invited to author panels, where multiple authors speak, and this is a great opportunity for me to meet other authors, which is one of my favorite things about the writing industry. The relationships you build in the writing world.

But in order to get these things to happen, I have to reach out. As an indie author, all the footwork and PR is up to me. And sometimes, it’s still hard to ask, but I do it anyway. Like I’ve said before, the worst people can do is say no. And we never get what we don’t ask for.

I think some of you know, but in case you don’t, I joined a classic rock band last year. It’s fun, and something I think lots of people dream of doing at some point in their lives. I’m fifty-seven. If not now, when? It’s a blast! One of our gigs coming up is at the Fults Family Vineyards Winery, in Lower Lake, California. They are so kind there, and because I know the owners, they are encouraging me to also sign my books on the night of our gig. A two-fer! I’m stoked about that. If you read this on or before September 4th, come on over for Thirsty Thursday, and see us there. Again…it’s the connections. I love people.

The main reason for me making the post today is to let you know that my new book it out there, but also that I’d love to talk with you. The best part of being a writer is talking about books, about writing, and the writing process. The WHY we write, and what drives us. If you love stories, if you love to read, or have ever thought you might want to write a book…PLEASE… come to one of the events on the schedule, or look me up! Email me at pdienerauthor@gmail.com and in the subject line write: Let’s Connect.

In the meantime, I hope your summer wraps up lovely. Can you believe it’s September now? I hope you enjoy your friends, the good weather, and the little things that add up to big things. Like, a great cup of coffee in the morning. A quiet moment, or a walk in nature. A belly laugh with friends over wine or your favorite cocktail, or the beauty of a spectacular sunset. I hope you know how very much you do matter, and that your contribution to the world only asks that you show up. In any way that you can. Some days it’s in bigger ways, and some days it’s just that you got out of bed. Just do your best, and know you are enough.

With all my love, I’m sending you wishes of happiness. Happy reading my friends.

Xoxo ~ Patti

Living for These Moments

Being Brave Enough to Risk Rejection

You never get what you don’t ask for in this life. That has been my motto before it was even a thing. It is the truth though, and sometimes it takes enormous strength and courage to ask for not only what you need, but for the things you truly want. Right now, I want for my book to be successful, and that takes a village.

I remember back when I had my day spa in the small town where I live in Lower Lake, California. I was a young mother with small daughters, but wanted to work outside of the home again. It had been a decade of staying at home and I was thirsting for human connection with adults who ate things other than PB & J sandwiches, and wore clothes other than sweatpants.

So I started a business in a little 1940’s bungalow that sat on Main Street. I got the landlord to lower the rent, tear out the carpeting to refinish the hardwood floors, and install a more efficient heating/cooling system. When the previous tenants came into my shop and saw the improvements, they were surprised to find out the landlord paid for it all. A bit pissed off, they asked, “How did you get him to do that?” I simply said, “I just asked.”

If you have a compelling enough argument, or kind enough request, you’d be surprised at how people truly want to help you. With the launching of my book, Wildflower, I’ve asked people to not only buy the book, but recommend it to their friends, leave a review or rating, and share pictures of it online. As an indie author, (this means I’m not traditionally published or represented by an agent), I’m the whole show on my own. So I literally need to ask for help wherever possible, and this means I have to get over myself, when it comes to feeling awkward and vulnerable.

My current event schedule at the time of this post.

Going into independent bookstores, or any retailer, to ask the management if they would be interested in carrying my book is still very intimidating to me. I get nervous and worry of the sting of rejection, should they turn me down. It could happen. Luckily for me, so far it hasn’t. Still, I know that day will come when I’m met with a, we just aren’t interested, comment. But it won’t stop me. Because a NO, only means it’s not a good fit. And afterall, who wants to be partnered with someone that’s not a good fit?

The other thing that is scary is putting yourself out there for interviews on podcasts, book groups, and social media events. It’s crucial though in this day and age, to be open to all kinds of platforms that could possibly get your book circulated. I mean, let’s face it… we don’t want to just sell a dozen copies to our closest family and friends as authors. And readers are literally everywhere, but you gotta know where to look. There has to be some kind of risk involved in order to get a return. That means, you have to get uncomfortable, and I’ve been willing to do that for quite some time now.

Shared picture of Wildflower
Another shared picture of Wildflower

I love that people are kind enough and excited enough about my books that they share their pictures with me on social media. The love they share just makes my heart grow. I would write no matter what, because I cannot keep myself from writing. But knowing people are out there anticipating my words, brings me a kind of joy that cannot be properly expressed. There isn’t vocabulary that describes that kind of feeling, but it lights me up, and fuels my spirit.

If you haven’t read Wildflower, it is about a young woman finding her worth in the world. It’s about mothers and daughters, about addiction and redemption, and forbidden love and romance. It’s about stopping at nothing to build a better life, even when it feels like the world is trying to tear you down. I love Charlie Kane and Jack Connors, my two main protagonists. But there is a whole cast of characters that I am in love with, and some I love to hate. I hope you will grab a copy from either Amazon (in both paperback or ebook), or from one of the retailers I’m holding an event with. Look at the above list. Soon there will be an audiobook out, and I’m always making new contacts with stores, so follow me on Instagram or Facebook for current details on where else Wildflower will be sold.

Thank you so much for all your support. And if you have already read either of my books, please leave a review on Amazon, or Goodreads, because that helps the algorithms put my book higher in the lists online, making them easier for others to find.

Here’s hoping I see you out there at one of my events. Cheers to the last part of summer.

Xoxo ~ Patti

* Feature photo is mine, along with schedule pic. Photo credits of shared book shots are from Yvette Sawle Guillory, and Darcie Jordan.

Deadlines and Distractions

Keeping My Eye on the Prize for Book Launch Day

As I look at my over-filled calendar that’s chock-full of obligations, fun events and outings, to even doctor appointments, I realize I’m just a little over ten weeks away from book launch day. Time surely flies.

The surprising thing is, I’m not very nervous. I think I’ve given myself plenty of lee-way in the off chance that something holds up the project. Publishing can be tricky when there are so many wheels in motion. So many people to rely on to do their part. I’ve been fairly lucky thus far that all of my team, that I’ve had to assemble in order to get this book out, has been on the ball and quick to address their role.

In case you missed what book I’m speaking of, I’ve written a new novel called, Wildflower. It is set to release on July 8th, and I feel that excitement of a new mother all over again, giving birth to a precious gem that’s been twenty-two months in gestation.

The cover design came out better than I could have dreamed! And with the interior being formatted now for both the print version as well as ebook, I’m just waiting for the final product so I can review it.

But I tend to get distracted and unsure of what to do next. With all the deadlines I have for each step to be completed, sometimes I can get overwhelmed with the checklist. The marketing is the most cumbersome. From social media posts, to making videos, creating cards, and bookmarks, to lining up interviews with influencers, book groups, bookstores, and podcasters…it seems endless. Do I hire a PR person? Do I continue to do it myself? For now, I’m doing ok, but self-publishing is a lot.

My most recent endeavor has been to pull together pictures to create a book trailer. Yes, that’s a thing. Like watching a movie trailer, seeing a book trailer can give people a better idea as to what the book is about. A visual aid to pique their interest. Something that eats up a lot of my time but will last forever, and I can use it again and again. Still, it gets exhausting, and once you are on the internet merry-go-round, looking for usable photos, time slips through your fingers faster than a slippery bar of soap. Time management hasn’t always been my greatest strength either.

So the good news is, I am on track, I’m feeling great, and spring is here! This is my favorite time of year and I am the most energized during spring. It’s glorious to get up early at sunrise, breathe deeply in that dewy grass outside with a steamy cup of coffee, and listen to the music of the birds showing off for one another.

I hope you are getting just as excited for my new book as I am. Wildflower is the story of Charlie Kane, a girl living in Sebastopol, California, and her evolution to becoming a woman, struggling to find her worth in a world of turmoil and chronic dissappointment. It’s about mothers and daughters, about addiction and redemption, and forbidden love and romance. It’s about stopping at nothing to build a life when it seems everything wants to tear you down. A heroes journey of sorts. Heroine, actually. And the book will take you from Northern California, to the busy cities around Los Angeles, New York, and other travel destinations as well. I’m thrilled to share it.

Wishing you all a lovely spring full of joy and adventure. Don’t forget to tell your friends about Wildflower, (and maybe this blog), so more people will be enticed to grab my book once it is available. I’m also working on getting it ready for pre-orders. More on that to come.

All the best ~ Patti

*Photos belong to Patti Diener except bird picture is provided by pexels.com.

Jumping Into the Deep End

Back in the Querying Saddle Again

It’s like being a kid with all your friends casually treading water with smiles on their faces, daring you to take the plunge. The water’s fine, they say. But what they don’t tell you is the water, although it sparkles and looks enticingly refreshing, can be shocking and icy. It’s sink or swim baby! And if you want to play with them in the deep end, you better figure it out quick. There are other people lined up, waiting on the diving board for their turn and their place in the pool.

Ok, so maybe that analogy isn’t the best, but it does feel like that when you are a writer trying to break into traditional publishing. I’ve written five books so far and only published the second one, and that by self-publishing. I didn’t want my friends and dare I say… fans, to wait for my book, After the Fire, to be picked up in the trad-pub world, so I did it myself. It was really well recieved, (thanks to you loyal people who have stuck it out with me from the beginning), but I really want a team behind me. I’m ready to dive in.

With my book, The Clock Tower of Maple Creek, not being picked up after several attempts for representation, I set it aside to write something new. Back in September of 2023, I started Wildflower, and finished it this early spring of 2024. Since then I have done three rounds of edits and shared several chapters with my fantastic writing group, The Kick-Ass Women Writers. I wrote and tore apart to rewrite my query three different times and finally landed on the current one I’m sending out to select agents. You just never know for sure if the query will resonate with the person you are trying to connect with. It’s always a gamble, and like I said, there are already a lot of kids in the proverbial pool.

I’ll share with you the meat of my query so you can get an idea of what my book is about. I’m in love with my characters and dream of them often. Yes, they are real to me. Does that make me crazy? Well aren’t all writers a tad insane? Below is the sample without the salutations or closing bio.

What happens when the handsome guy you met over the summer ends up being your substitute English teacher? Charlie Kane finds out as she struggles with the agony of forbidden love, the heartbreak of a broken family, and dreams of one day leaving it all behind to pursue a life as a professional artist.

The summer leading up to her senior year in high school, seventeen-year-old Charlie Kane’s life is in shambles. An intellectual outcast with an unfavorable reputation, she has nowhere to turn, living in poverty with her addictive mother, in their small northern California town.

Twenty-four-year-old Jack Connors has just left a dead-end job in Los Angeles and is house and dog sitting for his uncle in Sebastopol, California, trying to decide his next career move when he meets a beautiful, if somewhat unruly girl on the street.

Although the two have instant chemistry, neither learns much about the other. Then worlds collide on Charlie’s first day of her senior year when she walks into her English class and comes face to face with the tall and gorgeous stranger…and he’s the teacher.

Inspired by the 1972 song, “Wildflower”, by Skylark, The Police hit, “Don’t Stand So Close to Me”, and the mother-daughter relationship of Cloud and Tully from Kristin Hannah’s, Firefly Lane, Wildflower, is edited at 100K words and told in dual POV. This book will appeal to female fans of Colleen Hoover, Jojo Moyes, or Josie Silver.

So wish me luck on this querying journey I’m embarking upon once again. In the meanwhile, I’ll be writing with the hubby on his children’s book he’s making and learning more about the picture book industry. That’s what’s happening in my world. Thanks for stopping by.

Sending you all much love. Xoxo ~ Patti D.

*Swimming pool photo and girl with tattoo are courtesy of pexels.com. Others are mine / Patti Diener